Sunday, June 26, 2011

Fun new things

A change now and then in your life is definitely not a bad thing. Sometimes you might just itch for change. That is why I recently just got a haircut (which looks way better on me than my old one). A haircut is a simple way of making a big change that doesn't have too dire consequences. At first I didn't like the new haircut. You always have to get used to new things. What helped me like it just a little bit more was a photoshoot with one of my friends. She asked me and my little sister to be models for her. It was so fun. We got to dress up in old fashioned clothes and I got to experiment with my makeup and hair. I always forget how much I love fashion and beauty. Call me shallow, but it's so much more than just what you look like on the outside. It lets you change into whoever you want to be. Everytime you change you can have a different story. But somehow all those stories still seem to represent who you are. No one has just one side... that would be boring. Fashion and beauty not only allows the natural beauty to shine forth, but it allows you to express your personality in ways that other people might not see in the everyday. Some people may not see that, or not care about that, but it's ok. Everone is different. If everyone thought the same... like I said before, that would be boring. :)

Sunday, June 19, 2011


I was outside under the sun and nice summer breeze. I wasn't doing anything in particlar, just basking. I looked around and there were little yellow dots of dandelions all over the yard. Most people see dandelions as a nuisance, a weed. But I think they are quite lovely. You can make chains of dandelions into crowns, necklaces, bracelets, etc.

I started thinking about this more deeply, don't as me why, and I realized that choosing the dandelions to decorate my blog is just perfect. Sometimes I feel like a dandelion. I may be beautiful and appreciated at some moments (like I had been doing with the dandelions that afternoon), but most of the time I feel unwanted and bothersome. But then when the dandelions continues to mature it changes into that white ball of fluff. It's free, and flies away, to grow someplace new.

I thought this was very inspirational, and I realized that is my story at this point in my life. A teenage girl will feel ugly, unwanted, etc at some point, no matter how good she has it. Realizing that these things are not true is part of growing up. Then, when her adult life starts, she starts to mature and find herself free to begin again and grow if she chooses. But getting through that first phase as a yellow dandelion is necessary. And God is the one that never thinks we are simply ugly weeds that need to be plucked. He transforms us into the dandelion that is free to fly and rides wherever the breeze will take us.

Thursday, June 16, 2011


I haven't written in awhile becuase a lot has been going on in my life right now; maybe not physically, but emotionally.

I recently told my family that I have come to a relationship with Christ. They would be glad of this, but this relationship does not include the religion the participate in. I am struggling becuase I have this wonderful light in my life now, but I'm not really allowed to share it with the ones I love. What do you do when you have proof and assurity that the choice you have made brings so much happiness, but the ones you love see it as the worst choice you could possibly take? My brother won't even talk to me about his own beliefs now that he knows I don't believe the same as him. Anything I bring up is seen as misunderstanding or lies.

I'm pressing on and John 14:27 gives me comfort.

"I give you peace, the kind of peave that only I can give.It isn't like the peace that this world can give. So don't be worried or afraid."

Everything is in the Lord's hands and all we can do is trust Him and do His will.